|
Post by Smoke on Feb 23, 2014 5:53:37 GMT -6
Hey Pam, Just letting you know I'm thinking about you today..hard to believe it's been 6 years since you lost Ryan. If there is anything you need you know Fish & I are always here for you.
|
|
|
Post by fish on Feb 23, 2014 17:13:45 GMT -6
Soon we will be with them.
Let's live our lives so they can be proud of us.
|
|
|
Post by Pam on Mar 2, 2014 10:23:26 GMT -6
Hey thanks guys. Sorry for being MIA for so long. This has just been a particularly hard year for me. It was compounded by the fact that we couldn't get to Kara to bring her home for the weekend of the anniversary. So damn hard to know your kids are hurting and you can't hold them. So it was just Tanner and I. Jack flew down to see his sister to surprise her for her birthday. Headache great time and I'm so glad he went.
At 9pm on the 23rd tanner was in the kitchen and he turned and said to me. I guess that ship has sailed. I asked what he meant and he was referring to the fact that no one stopped by that day. That always is a hard pill to swallow. But we made it.
We released balloons with 3 flowers attached them, 6 green and 6 red hearts, green was Ryan's favorite color of course they all got caught up in a tree on the edge of the driveway despite our best efforts to get them to clear them. As we walked back said to Tanner, noe he'll never get them. We left about an hour later to pick up some food and all the balloons were still there, every one of them,...except for the flowers. The snow was pristine white, no marks, the flowers red, we couldn't see them anywhere, we had them tied really good to the balloons. So we explored a bit, the snow was hard so the flowers wouldn't have sunk. We checked all around and no flowers. Later that night Kara got a message on her phone that she had a new email. It was from me, from 2011, it was Ryan voice recording from his voicemail.
I miss him more each day and honestly jake and sue, I am so thankful to have you both of you...you have no ides. So very happy God crossed our paths. I may not say it but I love you guys. Thanks for everything you do for me.
|
|