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Post by Pam on Jan 1, 2009 10:18:05 GMT -6
My daughters friend almost died in my arms yesterday. It was horrible. She had a seizure. Ryan had a seizure just before he died.
Guys, this one has really pushed me to the edge. I dont have words to describe the feelings I am feeling right now. I'm not as strong as God thinks I am.
I just dont know who to process all of this.
Pam
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Post by ejoyce on Jan 1, 2009 12:11:37 GMT -6
Pam,
I sent a PM.
Thinking abot you...
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Post by Pam on Jan 1, 2009 12:42:07 GMT -6
Thank you Eileen, I got it.
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Post by fish on Jan 2, 2009 9:54:08 GMT -6
It is possible, dear Pam, that two of your most fervent prayers have been answered.
That child was not alone. You were there for that girl when she needed you, and perhaps you pulled her back.
There is a mother who may have been spared your pain because you were there for her child.
Thank God you were there.
fish
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Post by Pam on Jan 2, 2009 12:22:11 GMT -6
I'm not sure if I pulled her back or just got lucky fish. I'm just thankful as heck that she is ok. Everything I leanred in CPR class came rushing back. When the 911 operator was telling me to put her on her back I knew that wasnt right. It is amazing how an experience like that changes you. So many emotions still running through me. I keep seeing that day in my mind, her face, so blue, blood coming from her mouth...its horrible.
I wonder...I have photos of my sweet Ryan after the accident, Ive been told they are very graphic, they have to be because my baby looked nothing like himself. I was waiting until after Christmas and was going to look at them. Now Im not sure I'm ready.
I want, need to experience what he did...I dont know why fish, I just do. I love him so much. He must have been so scared...I just dont know...I dont know what to make of all of this.
I do know this, it is tearing me apart...I cant wait to get to my first support group...I think I am more ready than ever.
Thanks fish....I wasnt about to make another mother go through what I am.
Pam
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Post by ejoyce on Jan 2, 2009 14:44:06 GMT -6
Pam,
I am not sure how I missed how serious the situation was. It was a blessing that you were there and knew what to do. Yes you saved another mother the suffering you experience, maybe that is in someway a gift to you.
Fish expressed it perfectly.
Eileen
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And so my week begins.