Post by Pam on Mar 24, 2009 22:08:15 GMT -6
The coolest thing happened last night as we let balloons go for Ryan. Its something we do each month on the anniversary of his accident. We each write a note to him, attach them to the balloons and let them go. I wanted to share what happened yesterday with all of you because it was just so amazing.
The 23rd is always really hard for me. I go through my countdown. The last time I kissed and hugged Ryan, the last time I heard his beautiful voice, the time the accident happened and the moment I found out my life was changed forever. Its a hard day usually full of lots of tears.
I talk to Ryan all the time, sometimes out loud, sometimes in my head and other times through writing. Yesterday I asked him for a sign that he could hear me talking to him. Something I knew was from him. We have a lot of eagles here so I asked him to send one that I would know was from him.
So at around 6 o'clock we went outside, it was cloudy and wet. We plugged in the CD player and put on the song "I'll meet you there" Then we started down the driveway, about a quarter of the way down this eagle flew overhead. It was so close it looked as if we could reach up and touch it. It circled overhead following us as we walked down to the end of the driveway to let the balloons go. When we got there we stood there for a moment, the eagle still circling overhead and then we let the balloons go. They were slow to rise, but as they did the eagle circled them. As they started to drift further away the eagle flew with them. He flew with them until we could no longer see the eagle.
It was the most amazing thing I have ever seen. I know some people dont believe in signs but I do. Too many things have happened since Ryan died. It is my nature of course to try to reason away these "signs". I know it must frustrate Ryan. But this, how could I reason this away? I believe with all my heart that Ryan sent that eagle for us. Even now, even still, he is taking care of us. God how I miss him.
And to Ryan, as the song goes:
I'll meet you there
No matter where life takes me to
I'll meet you there
And even when I need you here
I'll meet you there
Thanks for letting me share that with you.
Pam
The 23rd is always really hard for me. I go through my countdown. The last time I kissed and hugged Ryan, the last time I heard his beautiful voice, the time the accident happened and the moment I found out my life was changed forever. Its a hard day usually full of lots of tears.
I talk to Ryan all the time, sometimes out loud, sometimes in my head and other times through writing. Yesterday I asked him for a sign that he could hear me talking to him. Something I knew was from him. We have a lot of eagles here so I asked him to send one that I would know was from him.
So at around 6 o'clock we went outside, it was cloudy and wet. We plugged in the CD player and put on the song "I'll meet you there" Then we started down the driveway, about a quarter of the way down this eagle flew overhead. It was so close it looked as if we could reach up and touch it. It circled overhead following us as we walked down to the end of the driveway to let the balloons go. When we got there we stood there for a moment, the eagle still circling overhead and then we let the balloons go. They were slow to rise, but as they did the eagle circled them. As they started to drift further away the eagle flew with them. He flew with them until we could no longer see the eagle.
It was the most amazing thing I have ever seen. I know some people dont believe in signs but I do. Too many things have happened since Ryan died. It is my nature of course to try to reason away these "signs". I know it must frustrate Ryan. But this, how could I reason this away? I believe with all my heart that Ryan sent that eagle for us. Even now, even still, he is taking care of us. God how I miss him.
And to Ryan, as the song goes:
I'll meet you there
No matter where life takes me to
I'll meet you there
And even when I need you here
I'll meet you there
Thanks for letting me share that with you.
Pam
And so my week begins.