Post by Smoke on Mar 3, 2012 6:56:21 GMT -6
Oh yeah, that was a group way back.
Another weekend here..I feel like a hamster on a wheel in a cage these days. ( does my trainer have something to do with that?)
I wish I knew what to do to get out of this funk.
Go to work, take care of my folks, eat, ride my bike, sleep. Throw in the added load or 2 of laundry and ya got me pegged.
I hit a milestone in my profession yesterday that not too many do...25 years at the same job. I still absolutly love what I do!
I have lost the drive to do more of it..I think that has more to do with the business arrangement...Why should I be busting my ass for someone else? I don't own the business outright and there are some things that I do have a chip on my shoulder about that I won't bore you all with...I keep my anger at bay by not thinking about it much.
I'm not sure what I'm looking for to be different. Relationship wasn't going well so I thought that was the problem and got rid of it, but I feel like all my energy is going into taking care of my folks now.
Kid and I went out yesterday to get her bike, stopped by a local health food store that she had never been to, also went to another grocery store...had a nice time with her. Was a slight break in the chain.
Not looking for a new relationship..too many bad issues with the old one and I really don't think I need to fill my life up with more crap again....not at this point at least.
Not sure if it's mid life crisis or what. Maybe just trying to rearrange my life..or find the one that I managed to lose somewhere along the line.
..this too kind of bumms me out if I think about it too much.
I get the feeling that Fish, you are in this same sort of funk but +20 years....that too scares me because my last 25 have gone by so fast...I hope I get it figured out by then.
Well off to my folks.
Another weekend here..I feel like a hamster on a wheel in a cage these days. ( does my trainer have something to do with that?)
I wish I knew what to do to get out of this funk.
Go to work, take care of my folks, eat, ride my bike, sleep. Throw in the added load or 2 of laundry and ya got me pegged.
I hit a milestone in my profession yesterday that not too many do...25 years at the same job. I still absolutly love what I do!
I have lost the drive to do more of it..I think that has more to do with the business arrangement...Why should I be busting my ass for someone else? I don't own the business outright and there are some things that I do have a chip on my shoulder about that I won't bore you all with...I keep my anger at bay by not thinking about it much.
I'm not sure what I'm looking for to be different. Relationship wasn't going well so I thought that was the problem and got rid of it, but I feel like all my energy is going into taking care of my folks now.
Kid and I went out yesterday to get her bike, stopped by a local health food store that she had never been to, also went to another grocery store...had a nice time with her. Was a slight break in the chain.
Not looking for a new relationship..too many bad issues with the old one and I really don't think I need to fill my life up with more crap again....not at this point at least.
Not sure if it's mid life crisis or what. Maybe just trying to rearrange my life..or find the one that I managed to lose somewhere along the line.
..this too kind of bumms me out if I think about it too much.
I get the feeling that Fish, you are in this same sort of funk but +20 years....that too scares me because my last 25 have gone by so fast...I hope I get it figured out by then.
Well off to my folks.