Decompressing

[Smoke]

Ok guys need some help here..I feel like I'm going off the deep end! Little stuff is getting to me, I'm starting to mess up at work. All I keep doing is going through the motions. I'm sick of being walked on and having people do stupid stuff. I've go an aid that dowes her job half assed...sit in her car for 20 min on her cell phone smoking a cigarette and at the kitchen table thinking she's hiding it from my dad. For cryin out loud your only there for 5 hours!! Do the job your sent there to do! Not piss around on your phone. ( I may have that one partly taken care of...the hospice nurse said she would be by and see what she sees.)

There has been so much crap over the last few years and I guess it's catching up to me. My Brother and Niece were at my Dad's when I got ther yesterday...If I knew they were there I never would have gone in. My niece had a kid a few months back..I could care a less...with all that my idiot brother hasn't done I don't have time for any of them. Only time my niece would be around was Christmas to make sure she got the card with $$ in it..All My Mom did for the kids when they were younger and now forget it.

I just needed to vent out here..Had another episode at work with ex boss/owner trying to still flex his muscle and I think that's what set me off today...like I said it sure doesn't take much these days...I see why people go postal...not that I'm planning to but ya can understand where they come from.

Thx for listening!

[fish]

talking this stuff through is very important.  

there is a book on cognitive therapy from some time ago, if i can remember the title ...

wait here, i'll be back when i've found it.

got it.

www.amazon.com/Feeling-Good-Handbook-David-Burns/dp/0452281326/ref=pd_bxgy_b_text_y/175-2546171-3171660

the cover picture and title were so embarrassing that i put a plain brown paper cover on it, but the book was pretty good.

anger is toxic.

in fact, i think i'll go through that handbook again.

in Maine, the seasonal affect disorder just makes things worse.

be strong.

[Pam]

You know Sue I don't know what kind of winter you guys ate having but I'm feeling the same way and really think this long, extremely cold winter has a lot to do with it. I just want yo go outside! At -30 it's just not fun.

You do so much too. I wish I had some answers for you.

I think we should take a trip to somewhere warm and sunny.