Having a "Miss my Mom" day

[Smoke]

Bought a case of tomato's to can up for the winter. Garden didn't have enough and I like to have them for chili and soups in the winter.

My Mom taught me how to can, not sure I do it exactly like she did but I haven't died or got sick yet so I guess I'm doing it right. It's been well over 20 years since my Mom and I canned anything. I was about halfway through and had to have a little Cry~Fest..I do miss doing that kind of stuff with my Mom...Kinda makes the bad stuff go away and not seem so bad.

Then I started hollering at her cause I can't find her Ketchup receipe! LOL...she hasn't answered me yet.

[ejoyce]

Those moments sneak up on you, sometimes when least expected. I saw a mom and daughter shopping at Macy's and lost it. Hopefully soon these memories won't be so filled with grief.

[Pam]

Those moments do hit at unexpected times. When I see a mom and son shopping I lose it. I still remember the last time I shopped with Ryan. He was looking for cargo pants and found a pair he really liked. Then he looked at the price and put them down. They were $50. He was always so conscious of how much money we spent, never asked for much especially after he started working. He wouldn't even let me help him pay for school. So glad I picked those pants back up and bought them for him.

Sue you really help me see things in a better light with my parents. Its still frustrating, not the helping, just, I don't know....but I know one day I will be so glad I was there for them, I already am.

You remind me that I should have my dad write out all his recipes. I'm not big on sweets anymore but I know one day it will be nice to be able to make his lemon cake and think about him.

Love ya kiddo.

[fish]

the grief never goes away. it turns into a profound sense of loss, and an appreciation for what once was.

so the time will come, if it has not already, that you will see the mom and son and that feeling will wash over you. how wonderful life can be, if only we appreciate it as it happens.